Knotted up in my regrets and my losses are the gifts of love and life that I only have because of the regrets and the losses.
{on love and loss and going home}
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To the Brink: a Tribute to Parents
The first eight months of our youngest son’s life epitomized uncertainty to me. I rocked a baby against my chest every night, a solid fragile weight pressed next to my heart, not knowing if I would ever be able to call him “son.” It was the riskiest version of love I’d ever known. As every adoptive parent […]
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{Saturday morning levity}
Everything has been a little heavy here lately, so for laughs… Things I have done this week: *Taught fourteen piano lessons (one absence) and held in laughter for two solid hours on my last work day because the excuses for not practicing were so ludicrous. Although, that one about not having a piano anymore was […]
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{when your joy is off the market}
This morning I picked up my Bible and opened it to Psalm 43. In five short verses, I found freedom. I’ve been working through the psalms for about six weeks, and as I study and notate each psalm, memories often push into my thought process with a powerful presence. I’m one for writing in my […]
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{yesterday I cried in the Walmart parking lot}
I want to think that I’m invincible. That I’m not tethered to my body that insists on attacking itself. That I have control over the inner workings of my flesh. I don’t. I’m not. I’ve had a slew of tests and imaging over the past month. I lost count at the lab after they took […]
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{record update}
So, we’ve been working on my EP for like, almost a year. My producer is freelance, and he’s working and taking seminary classes, so he’s pretty tied up these days. Since he’s doing my project nearly for free, I can’t really blame him for working and studying and stuff rather than, you know, making me […]
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{what I’m reading}
I always love knowing what people are reading. More often than not, something from their reading list goes directly on to mine. I mostly get this from blogs or Facebook because for some reason I never think to ask people in person what they’re reading. Although to be fair, as I, thinking about why that […]
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{what’s the scariest thing you’ve done lately?}
My world has become really small over the past year, and that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Given the latter half of 2015, we needed to circle the wagons around our family drama and trauma. Now that we’re working through the recovery part, I’m trying to pry open my hands and do some things to […]
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{things i’m loving}
How about a less heavy post? I always love it when bloggers list things that they are currently reading, listening to, wearing, trying, eating/drinking, etc. I’ve discovered some great books and recipes and tips through posts like those, so I thought I’d do something similar. If they cool kids are doing it, I’m usually awkwardly […]
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{living the dream}
Forgive the cliche title, but it is exactly what I mean for it to be. Now that I’ve settled into parenting-more-than-one-kid mode, I’ve realized that I’m not nearly as good at multitasking as I thought I was. I’m getting schooled by tiny humans. I took two months off of work when my youngest was born, […]
